excitement. anticipation.

I want to write a post that expresses how excited I am for the next few months. I don't know how to put into words the way I feel right now, but I don't want to forget it.

This is my third pregnancy. The first ended early, before I really realized what was happening. Although it was early, it knocked me over emotionally. I didn't realize it could hurt so badly to lose something you never really had.
Pregnancy #2 was ... rough. We lost the twins at 21 weeks, in a foreign land (Indiana), right before Christmas last year. I don't wish this kind of pain on my worst enemy. I don't really like to talk about it.

This pregnancy has had me somewhat anxious. I've had ultrasounds every 2 weeks to measure my cervix, and in the beginning every single twinge of pain or anything threw me into a momentary panic. Luckily, I have a super fantastic husband who makes me relax all the time, cooks me dinners, gives me blessings, and puts up with vetoes my baby name ideas.
This pregnancy is exciting. I'm 24 weeks today, and it's finally starting to feel real. I can't wait to meet the little peanut. But, I really love being pregnant too. I secretly love wearing maternity clothes, and it hasn't even bothered me yet when people touch my belly. Yet. The best thing is feeling her move around in there. I felt the twins move a bunch, but not like this. I'm totally in awe of this little tiny person in there, moving around, taking naps when she wants, I love it. I sometimes just stare at my stomach, watching it move when she does. It blows my mind to think that it's not just hiccups or something ... it's an actual person in there. I love this time I get with her, just the two of us for a little while.

I'm just so thankful.

texts out of context: part 2.

So here it is: version 2.
See version 1 here, and my inspiration here. Enjoy.

*Drug tests and relapses. How did you sleep?

*WTH? What's with the horse head and twin dancers?

*Tyler has been up banging on sh*t since 4. I've been up since 4.

*There is a pack of coyotes howling right now.

*Potassium.
*(1 minute later) That is K on the periodic table.

*... and this gross lady in buckskins.

*Date with the nibbler is over. He kind of grew on me.

*You are missing a horrible windstorm.

*Yes. Ron. Swanson.

*Crap on a stick.

*I may or may not be using your trifle dish to make the trifle recipe I stole from your pinterest to make a dessert from a bridal shower I'm hosting.

*Clothing would be my vote.

*Pretty much pure hell.

*Oh man!! I'm am so stupid!!

*No I'm not fat .... I'm pregnant.

*I did and I regret it and I threw up in my mouth.

*Yeah. Hope that 60K in debt was worth it.

*Sweet Dee is the king of the world.
*(2 minutes later) Or queen.

*I am just naturally fat :)

*I know, which I find puzzling because she seems so normal.

*So he texted me and wanted to know how my date was. He sucks.

*Do you think he will freak out on a giant flat wakeboarding tube floating down the provo? It's really big.

*But a lion tamer gets to not only be in charge of lions but also gets to have a whip and wear leather!

*Sounds like the dumbass runs in the family.

*If you see him, kick him in the balls for me.

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And ... another plug for my darling niece Soph -- please donate! They are getting so close to their goal - click here.

THANKS!

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I'm thinking about driving to Idaho for scratch-off lotto tickets this weekend if anyone is interested ....

Sweet Sophia

Look how adorable my little niece is:

She's just the sweetest thing too ...

Anyway, her family is participating in the Michiana Down Syndrome Walk this year, where they have a chance to help raise money to assist individuals with Down Syndrome.

CLICK HERE TO CHECK OUT THE FUNDRAISER PAGE AND
*MAKE A DONATION*

thanks!!

another sunday

I love Sundays. I've been working a lot of Sundays lately ... which is quiet and nice and gives me time to watch old 30 Rock episodes ... but I hate missing church. I really hate when Lucas rubs in how awesome the speakers were in Sacrament Meeting, or how great his lesson went in Elder's Quorum. I hate missing out on seeing my church friends. I hate that people need help from the police and rides to the hospital even on Sundays.

So today I've been working on my lesson for Relief Society next week: Stay on the Lord's Side of the Line - #18 from the George Albert Smith manual. Has anyone had this lesson already? Or read it? Any thoughts?

Also, it's Sunday dinner at my mom's house tonight ... we'll be celebrating a couple of birthdays with a delicious cheesecake, but I really really want to make these cookies also:

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And, today I found this fun new blog to read: Flower Patch Farmgirl. I just love finding new blogs to stalk ...

I really love Liz Lemon.



Mostly for Julie, here are a couple of shots of the growing girl (feel free to ignore Pat in the background):